Battling nerves in midlife

What I've learnt about feelings this week

So this week has been busy. Finally it feels like the things I’ve always wanted to happen are falling into place.

I’ve worked pretty much non-stop since my first book came out in 2019, and have gone back into agencies (for finances), come out and done more writing/podcasts and then back into agencies. It’s been incredibly disorientating and I had to work with a lot of shitheads during that time. People that undermined me and made me doubt myself. 2024 was different in that the last redundancy in March made me think that something was definitely off as I’d had 7 roles in 5 years. I always felt like I was standing with one foot in my old life, and one in my new one. Always s a stop start stop start feeling. Not progressing and super frustrating. And to be brutally frank the books didn’t quite promise the success (financial) that I’d anticipated.